No miracles under dictatorship

Iryna Kazulina has died. Death is always unexpected and untimely. Death seriously affects those who stay. Today I dialed Iryna’s number, and an idea flashed through my mind that a miracle might happen, and I would hear her voice as usual. But a miracle hasn’t happened.

When my husband Anatol Krasouski disappeared, I was waiting for him every day and every minute. I was waiting for him and hoped against hope for his return. But a miracle hadn’t taken place. There were no miracles for wives, children, mothers of Viktar Hanchar, Dzmitry Zavadsky, Yury Zakharanka either. But justice hasn’t been delivered as well. Documents, testimony, reports and resolutions confirming involvement of our country’s leadership to these abductions and assassinations, are not in force in the country where no law or justice exist, only fear and blind submission.

Last time I met Iryna in October. We were drinking tea and discussing all kind of things: politics, children, diets, future. As all of us, she believed that she would wait until she meets Alyaksandr. But the miracle hasn’t happened. Hope is often killed when you live in a dictatorship. It is killed meanly and shamelessly, without regard of one’s soul or responsibility before one’s children, one’s nation and the future.

However many politicians in Europe hope for a miracle in Belarus. What if one fine day the dictator would turn into a democrat or an angel? But as we have already seen, this won’t happen. No miracles take place under dictatorships.

In her last days Iryna said: I am waiting for a miracle, but for some reason a miracle is not happening. She must feel untroubled and easy now. She has helped many of us to understand the meaning of life and love. It’s more difficult for us, for those who have stayed. And though in a dictatorship miracles are impossible, every dictatorship has its end.